‘God, I need to hear you on this.’
And yes, I think God seemed to know that I did. I guess he brought me again to that point of having a desperate desire to listen. When we get ourselves to that place, when we turn up, when we step into the deep place, God speaks all we need to hear, even in the silence.
‘Come on, son,’ he said. ‘You’ve put in too much worry hours on this one.’
I agreed.
‘Listen, it is like this: sanctify yourself, for tomorrow I’ll do a great thing with you. That’s what I told Joshua and his people. It is what I told the disciples at Pentecost. It is what I say to you. Come apart for a while. Drink deep. Let’s do this thing together.’
No argument from me.
‘ And let’s transform that pain and sorrow whilst you’re here. This is the raw material of passion. This is the stuff I’ll make love from and you’ll never lack the resource to pour out your life for others. Come apart for a while. Drink deep. Let’s do this thing together.’
I’m listening.
‘That’s it. Settle into that place where you know my living waters flowing from deep within, like the river flowing from the temple. That living water will become a stream and a deep river, and by its sides will grow trees with green leaves which will be for the healing of the nations. Come apart for a while. Drink deep. Let’s do this thing together.’
Please God.
‘……………….’
Waiting. Receiving.