Doesn’t do any harm to undertake a bit of a spiritual review from time to time. It’s something that has been well over due for me, seeing as I’m still trying to find a new spiritual director after having moved south last year. It is so easy to get out of the pattern or habit of somethings, especially when life takes over. I’ve found over the years that if I’m not paying attention to my spiritual life then I simply ‘fall asleep’ and thats when things get out of kilter, the focus is lost, and the vibrancy goes.
A few things have arisen for me recently, in a variety of ways, which will inevitably have to become areas of focus in the months ahead.
The first is my relationship with those biblical language might call ‘the poor’, although its not necessarily language we would use today. By that, I mean my attention to ensuring I am doing what I can to carry my brothers and sisters in the world during their times of need. I had a dream a few nights ago. I was carrying an emaciated man, skin and bone. He was a different ethnicity to me, and I didn’t see his face, but I carried him a long distance until we reached a place where he was taken in and ministered to. I am not sure where all the details or experiences came for that dream to occur, but I woke knowing that I wasn’t currently engaged in any sort of work to actively support, advocate or work for the alleviation of circumstances of folks in challenging times. So, I need to pay attention to that.
Secondly, I have become aware that I’ve been getting less and less time for quiet, reflection, prayer and the like. And by that i don’t just mean firing up a quick request, rather, I mean time deliberately set aside to rest in God’s presence, to listen deeply to Him and to what is going on in me. My weeks do have an almost daily journaling practise, which is helpful, but not the full picture. I’ve come to know how valuable having time aside is, and ministry certainly can’t be sustained without it…inspiration and energy doesn’t just come from nowhere, as far as this work is concerned. There is a need to drink deeply in order to support others to do the same.
Finally, I’m listening more and more to my body. It no secret its been a bit neglected over the years, especially after years of comfort eating in seeking to cope through depressive episodes etc, and through lacking the energy, emotionally and physically, to do anything about it in the midst of challenges with mental health. Needless to say, you can’t just take your body for granted. Thankfully, my health is in a significantly better place, and so its time to work at gently undoing some stuff! Its easy to fall into the trap of separation emotional, spiritual and physical wellbeing but they are all so closely linked.
There are other things arising, which I may speak about another time. But what about you? Do you take time to ask ‘how am I doing?’, ‘what is my experience of life, right now?’, ‘are there areas that are our of balance?’, ‘how can I reconnect myself and wake up to all God has for me?’ I recommend it.